We won't (Dracoxreader) songfic

Don’t go to war for me

War….what did two teenagers even know about it. How could we have been so stupid to even try? Anyone with common sense would have never stuck around a potential Death Eater (but you did). How could we have been daft enough to consider pursuing a relationship of all things?

Best case scenario: we break each other’s hearts. Worst case: we both end up dead.

You knew even now, while standing in the silence, there was an awfully selfish part of you that silently begged him to come back. But who were you to step in the way of his family’s safety? How could you even consider putting yourself above them? Wouldn’t you have done if the same if they were involved?

I’m not the one that you want me to be

That went both ways really, but for some reason it was only truly apparent the moment Draco stepped across the courtyard. When he finally stood beside his mother, he and you suddenly locked eyes.

Don’t call me up at 2am tonight

He had expected fury, but all he saw was acceptance. A quiet, defeated expression…He tried to convey his apology. Never once did he believe he had ever lied to you. He had thought he loved you.
Maybe he did, but his family was closer to his heart than you would ever be.

But it feels so damn good and I wish you would

You showed your vulnerability by being the first to break eye contact. Meeting his grey gaze had once given you comfort, but no longer. A moment later, and you had made yourself disappear in the crowd of people.

A nudge on your shoulder broke your reverie. You had secluded yourself into a corner of the Great Hall, and no one had paid you the slightest attention.

“Are you alright?” a rather dreamy voice inquired.

You raised your head and rubbed your eyes as you focused on Luna Lovegood. The whimsical blonde seemed out of place in the bustling bombed out corridors of Hogwarts.

“I’ve…been better, but thank you for asking.” you replied.

“Is it about Draco Malfoy?”

“You’re quite observant, Luna.” you half heartedly stated. You and Luna had been in different circles at Hogwarts, but even you could easily see that the kindness she treated everyone with was genuine. You could trust her to keep secrets.

And don’t cry no more for me
Don’t waste your time convincing me
That maybe someday we’ll get it right
Cause we never could, I wish that we would

“I know for a fact it’s better off this way, but I still miss him.” you started. Luna gently put an arm around you, and you leaned onto her shoulder in return.

“I’m sure we could never work out in the long run, but I still wish he was here. I wish…he hadn’t gone with his family.” you sniffled.

“I believe you did the right thing. Nothing lasts forever. she reminded you.

“I know I’m being foolish, but I just don’t want to hurt anymore.” you said.

“You’ve been hurting for a long time. Just think of this, as the first step towards recovery.”  

“Can we just stay like this for a while, Luna?” The tears were falling fast know, and your heart felt so heavy it was as if you were drowning.

“Of course.”

But we won’t, so just don’t
We won’t so just don’t
But we won’t so just don’t
Don’t